I hope to add excerpts of letters and emails Kyle wrote during our dating days. Back when he promised me everything and treated me like I was the most important person in his world. The Kyle in these letters is the Kyle I fell in love with, the man I married and believed in. No matter how much time has gone by or how much bitterness and pain there is on both sides there will always be a part of me that will never stop loving the man who wrote these letters. There is a part of me that wishes with all my heart it wasn't all a lie and that he really existed. That all his wonderful accolades and promises were meant. If I was given one wish it would be to confront the Kyle of yesterday with the Kyle who exists today. I'd like to interrupt him in the middle of one of his promises of forever and show him a video of the man he would eventually become. I wonder if it would have made a difference? I wonder if he would have been as shocked and disappointed as I have been?